Tuesday, May 29, 2012

Past, Present, Future

Once upon a time, in a hot, humid land lived a girl who was newly graduated from high school. She was ready for the next big step in her life. College was drawing closer and she thought, "Hey, why not look good in the process?" So she joined Weight Watchers with her mom.

Everyday she followed her eating plan. She felt better, had more energy and felt more sociable. In fact, she felt so great she joined Circle K (college version of Kiwanis, not the gas station!) She had the time of her life going to to new places, fixing up camp sites, cleaning up roadways and nature preserves. She even found her future husband. 2006-2007 was a great year.

Then she kept hanging out with her amazing boyfriend and began to neglect Weight Watchers. She'd rather go to the movies with him than walk around the mall with friends. He would take her to get ice cream, yummy food she never tried and even liked playing Mario Kart with her. Life was going great.

Then she went from community college to the big leagues - USF. It was intense, it was crazy and she thought she'd fail. At the end of her first semester at USF her mother went into cardiac arrest. Her mother survived but it was a roller coaster ride. Between school,work, mom and her boyfriend the girl got very stressed and could only focus on the few things that were important to her. Exercise disappeared like a magic trick. Eating healthy became a thing of the past. It was survival mode.

One day, right before she got married, she looked at herself in the mirror. Why would her future husband want to stay with her? In 2007, when they first met, she was at her lowest weight and felt amazing. She loved herself and therefore could love her future husband. But from then until now the weight started to come back. She tried to ignore it. Her future husband would love her no matter what-even if she couldn't love herself anymore. She tried to deny it, but she could not anymore. She had gained back every pound she lost, plus more. What a sad girl she became.

The end.

Nope! I refuse to let that be the end. I made this picture to really make myself see what I have let happen to myself over the last five years.
The "me" on the right is from 2007 when I first met my husband. God I felt awesome. The  "me" on the left is the day we got married, December 2011 (I notice I put myself into the future based on the date I labeled). I have gained 101 pounds. Seriously? How did I let that happen?

While I think about how I let it happen, I really need to focus on the "how will I make it go away?" part. I have joined Weight Watchers again. Also I am signing up for a summer spin and Zumba class. Those two smarter choices have put me on the right track. Now I have to think of my goals. It's hard to get some place when you don't have goals to get you there.

I know what I can accomplish by looking at my past, I've finally opened my eyes to the present, and now I have to focus on the future.

I know I can't be the only one out there who has gone through such a drastic weight loss and then another drastic weight gain. If you want to get healthy again, come along for the ride. Share your struggles because one thing I do know, from past and present, is that trying to make a life style change on your own can be pretty tough.

I can do it, you can do it. Let's do it!


  1. Sweetie, I am proud of you. I want you to know that I lost 113 lb. I gained some back and have lost again, but still need to lose about 18 lb to get back to where I was before I met you. Don't do Zumba if it doesn't work for you. Don't pay too much attention to it all. Baby steps. I personally ate half of what I used to eat and ate what I wanted. I didn't deprive myself. I got a cd player (now an mp3) and started walking to the music. The addiction set in and I couldn't walk enough. I got a bicycle and then started lifting some "smartbells". After that, a workout ball and next a jogging trampoline. 100 lb is truly a drop in the bucket when you make one little change at a time and get the mindset that, if you lose nothing, what have you lost? You have gained a healthier lifestyle. Better than gaining weight. I believe in you and am praying that the weight comes off so quickly you won't know what hit ya! Love you, hunny!

  2. You are not alone! I have lost 30 pounds this year. I have been overweight my entire adult life? I still have another 20 pounds to go to get to the normal range. You can do it!